Written at 3am, inspired by this tumblr post
June 26, 2014
I’ve hit an all time low. Today was the day I was supposed to empty the medicine cabinet into my stomach and perish, until my plans were foiled. Now I’m sitting in a cinderblock walled, prison-like room in a psych hospital, wondering how I’ll ever come back from this.
June 26, 2017
I’m finally graduating from hell aka high school. While everyone’s looking at the post four years through rose colored glasses, I’m saying good riddance. I have the opportunity to start fresh this fall, reinvent myself. I’ve picked a great school and have a hefty scholarship. I’m going to achieve my dream of being a fashion journalist, I just know it.
June 26, 2018
I’m starting to get discouraged about achieving my dreams. No jobs or internships would accept me, or even respond to me. So now I’m stuck working retail until god knows when. The only plus side is my boyfriend, Josh. We met in March and have been inseparable. Luckily he lives within a 20 minute drive from home. He’s my silver lining.
June 26, 2020
Got my first internship, FINALLY. I’ll be blogging and boosting content for Refinery 29. I’m so so so excited to get one step closer to my dream. Josh is shadowing a therapist this summer. We’ve been taking our lunch break together at random trendy places we find online. It’s the best part of my day. I’m a lucky woman.
June 26, 2021
Time flies! I’m graduating college, leaving some amazing years behind. Now I know how everyone felt at high school graduation. I’m excited for what the future holds. My internship at Refinery 29 turned into a job offer! Starting in August, I’ll be writing articles for the site and featured in vlogs and product trial videos. Josh is going to grad school at NYU, while also working a research job in nyc, so he’ll be close. We’re planning on getting an apartment in Brooklyn when we can afford it.
June 26, 2023
I thought I’d never feel this low again. Josh’s younger sister, Carrie, who I’ve grown really close with over the years, has been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. I’m treasuring every moment I have with her. I can’t believe she’ll be gone. Life’s a bitch, huh. Just when everything was going well-got promoted, got an apartment with the love of my life, have amazing travel plans-something has to go wrong.
June 26, 2025
Josh just graduated grad school as valedictorian. I’m extremely proud of all he’s accomplished. He has a job lined up at a practice not to far from the apartment. He’ll be working with kids and teens. He’s the kind of person I needed when I was fourteen and suicidal. He’ll save so many young lives. I recently got invited to a show at New York fashion week to document for the website. I am beyond blessed.
June 26, 2027
I’ve been waiting for this day for almost ten years; I’m getting married to Josh! We planned (with A LOT of help) a beautiful wedding. I wish Carrie were here to see it. She’s the one who predicted we’d get married the first time I met her all those years ago. I’m convinced she’s been watching over us and making sure she was right, and I’m glad she was.
June 26, 2031
After nine months, we finally get to meet our daughter. Pregnancy and birth are hard work, but well worth it. Blair is beautiful and healthy and I can’t wait to watch her grow into a beautiful and strong woman. Josh is a natural father; I love seeing him obsess over her.
June 26, 2036
There’s been an accident. My sister was driving late last night and was hit on the drivers side by a drunk driver. She is alive, but in critical condition. They say she’ll eventually be ok, but she’ll might never walk again. I’d take a paralyzed sister over a dead sister any day.
June 26, 2047
It’s our 20th wedding anniversary, and our love is a strong as ever. Blair is sixteen and learning how to drive. Frankly, I’m terrified to have her on the road, but aren’t all parents? I’m just paranoid after what happened to my sister ten years ago. The doctors were right, she recovered fine, besides her ability to walk. Her wife has been really supportive and was her saving grace through the whole process.
June 26, 2070
We’ve retired very comfortably this year. We moved to the west coast to enjoy the weather and to be close to Blair. She’s been working in LA as a celebrity stylist for quite some time now. I’m so proud of my little girl. Even though life seemed bleak at times, there was always a shred of hope that got me to where I am, and I couldn’t be more thankful.